"Change is a process, not an event. We over-estimate the event. We under-estimate the process."

Exams are here again. My first one was in practical English phonetics, I got B and today I had to talk about one book I had selected to read ( "History of Medieval Europe) and got A. So everything has gone nicely so far.. except the fact that I fell ill. I had a really high fever and now something is wrong with my eye and ears...but I hope it will get better soon.
Today it's Friday and I've pleased myself with 6 hours of studying the history of European ideas. (And after this I will proceed). Anyway. I'm sad because there's no snow and my Christmas mood is now interrupted by exams..
But I still must say I'm grateful for what I'm learning and I hope it will make me a better person. And stronger.
Good luck you guys..in everything you do:).
L.

Deepside deejays was absolutely fabulous! Luckily I got a place which was so close to the stage so the headsinger even took my hand ( No, I wasn't desperately trying to touch him, crying and making silly facial expressions) I was just there, claping my hands and singing along so yea. It was really really nice. They seemed so positive and full of energy so that I got a warm feeling inside for the whole night. I hope they enjoyed being in Estonia.
Anyway. Right now I should make a presentation about cornflower and barn swallow.. but I can do it later :D.
I hope you have a nice weekend... you..everybody :)

I have been so concerned with the matter of how will I manage to buy for this, for that etc, so I lost the understanding of all that I really need is in me. The true path that I'm made to walk. If I just listen myself more, then the obstacles fade away.. and life will make a way for me.
Today I saw a weird dream. I was walking in circles, and I wanted to get inside one house. Its was locked and I didn't have the key. Then one mysterious girl came, who took my hand and told me: "Follow me." She opened the door and we had to go upstairs. The stairs were very high so when we finially got up, I was so scared of the height. I looked down and I started to cry from fear. The girl said: "Dont panic, It'll be alright" but I was still afraid. The next thing I remember is being in a hospidal. I wasn't there as a patient, but as a doctor. Me? Doctor? Can you imagine? I remember that I had to look over one man, who was really old. He said:" Doctor, if I die, would you please send my wife a red rose? And tell her that we'll meet under our tree." This seemed weird to me but I agreed. The man died. I did as he told, and the wife replied: "Thank you. I knew he would come." Lady took my hand and told me:"Love never dies."

I really dont know what to think of this dream.. but yea. I guess there's a reason why I saw it.
Anyway.. now I'll return to study Medieval Europe.
Have a nice day.
L